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I feel really grateful for the people I’ve chosen to do life with. Every connection is intentional. Intentionality is a part of all aspects of my life. I’m never just going with the flow–this of course is a blessing and a curse. But, these souls I’ve aligned myself with are exactly who I want(need) to journey with. 

I’m grateful for space–to be and become. Space to fall apart and reassemble, to question and be certain, to learn and unlearn, to speak up and hold back. I’m thankful for the spaces I’ve created for myself and the ones that have been created on my behalf. Because life can be both simple and tasking, I struggle to hold my head high at all times. I’m learning to accept the spaces that have been created for me to fall apart. 

As a person, I struggle with asking for and accepting assistance. But life is funny because it has steered me to a place where assistance is paramount for my survival and I continue to do the daily dance of tug of war. I believe I must learn the lessons of this chapter to thrive in the next but I refuse to believe that I’m being tested because I am strong. I refuse to believe that my willingness to keep going is the reason why the hailstorm won’t cease. 

I continue to push forward, eager to see how this story ends and holding on to those I want on the other side of the chaos. 

Greener pastures?

What’s the ideology behind greener pastures? What’s really the reason why people feel they have to change environments to get what they’re really searching for? Is it all in the mind? Maybe there’s more to it.

With business growth and success, I believe the environment you’re in can strongly affect you. This could be positive or negative. The negatives can push you to want to find greener pastures. As long as you’re making the right decisions and going in the right direction, that’s great.

When we step into the territory of relationships, it’s a different ball game. When certain people see you in a healthy relationship, they decide it’s time to play mind games. They’re so quick to tell you how much better they’d be as your partner and reasons why you should step out of your relationship. Honestly, no relationship is perfect. You’d have ups and downs but you need to understand that feelings don’t change because there’s a storm. If that happens, maybe they weren’t actually there in the first place. Everyone has demons and that person planting doubts in your mind might have greater demons than what you’re dealing with in your current relationship. Don’t be too quick to step out. You might be looking across from your lawn and imagine the grass is greener on the other side but don’t forget the price of mowing and watering the lawn. The devil you know is better than the angel you don’t know. If you have someone that treats you right and is there for you when you need them, stay. We all have flaws, some more than others. Stick to what you know, maintain your lawn and your grass would get greener.