Maybe.

Maybe I tried too hard,

Maybe I came on too strong,

Maybe I shared too much,

Maybe transparent wasn’t what you wanted,

Maybe honesty wasn’t what you needed,

Maybe we weren’t made for each other,

Maybe your heart couldn’t feel,

Maybe you were fighting insecurities,

Maybe you were scared to take a chance,

Maybe facing reality was your greatest challenge,

Maybe you were just too selfish to share your heart,

Maybe your ego couldn’t accommodate love,

Maybe you couldn’t even see me. 

 

 

Complicated.

I never give up, I never want to turn around once I embark on a journey. I just never want to feel like a failure. I’d rather struggle to stay afloat than admit I’m drowning. Maybe it has to do with my ego, principles or upbringing. I really don’t know. All I used to know was never quitting and in the end I’ll excel. It worked when life wasn’t so complicated even if at that point I thought life couldn’t get any worse. Apparently, it can. 

 
Everything’s crazy now. I’m so close to the end but I’m even closer to giving up. All I hear now is “you can do it, I have faith in you. You never fail”. Not really sure how much faith I have in myself anymore. I’m scared out of my mind and I don’t know how else to put it across. Not really sure if this kind of fear is healthy but I’m sure I don’t want to keep feeling this way. 
 
I’m about to have 10 crazy days but I’m putting all my faith in God ’cause I know He has never failed me and he won’t start now. I’ll make it through.