The change was soothing
I was grateful for a fresh start
Then it hit me,
The pain was familiar.
I’ve read this book before
I know exactly how the story ends
Constant bickering then we grow apart,
Forget the real reason why we started the journey
Hurtful comments and inconsiderate actions.
You promised love will never hurt again.
Again, you lied.
You’ve broken the heart I just pieced together.
Same hell, different demons.
Tell me when you’re not strong enough
Tell me when you want to let your guard down and need a shoulder to cry on
It’s ok that you’re not ok
It’s ok that you’re not strong today
There’s nothing wrong with feeling the pressure
I see beyond your tough exterior
I see beyond your broken smile
I know you’re going through it
I know you’re struggling to figure it out
You feel like you can do better and be better
I’ll hold your hand until all the dots connect
Trust in this unconditional love, please.
You’re guarded? I am too.
We need to be careful though. Building walls, trying so hard to protect ourselves. Guarding our hearts, scared of letting anyone too close. Avoiding getting our hearts shattered again? We’ve been hurt, we know what ‘broken’ feels like so we’re just making sure we keep all the pieces together.
Maybe we’re hurting ourselves. Locking out all the people we really need, you know the ones that only care about making sure we don’t hurt again?
That’s the thing about guarded people like us, we never believe anyone is genuine enough to just care about our well-being. Maybe because the people that swore they did at some point, found a way to walk away eventually. We’re constantly over-analyzing, over-thinking, trying so hard to read into the most irrelevant things. But as long as humans remain human, someone will eventually let us down somewhere along this journey of life.
She was broken
You wanted her
All of her
But her heart was under lock and key
You tried loving her pain away
Then the magic happened
She was whole, nearly perfect.