When loneliness shows up,
It knocks on the void in my heart.
One that was once filled with the warmth of love,
And the peace that companionship brings.
I long to fill that void.
If not with love, with a feeling that equates to it
Because the longer it stays,
Hatred and resentment take over.
Are you really in love?
Or is the idea of wasting the time invested keeping you?
It’s not impossible to have what you want,
He shouldn’t convince you that you’re asking for too much,
Don’t deny your heart the love it deserves
Just because the person you love is incapable of providing it.
The idea of me and you
Gets people intrigued.
Our reality however,
An unexplainable disaster.
The watered down conversations,
The lies and excuses,
The generic answers to mask the absence of your mind,
Made walking away painfully easy.
Back at rock bottom
It’s familiar right?
The slight depression that numbs you.
I know, I live there.
You never really had a chance
Everything you did was compared to the one that came before you
Your every word,
Your every gesture,
Nothing you did was good enough
On your own, you were great
But no one could see that
Because the bar was set a little too high.
I’ve become so accustomed to pain that when joy comes around, I’m not sure how to act. I don’t know how to express that emotion. When I bask in pain, the words flow. It’s comfortable.
Again, you’re growing cold
Numbing every bit of your heart that attempts to feel
I know what it’s like
Feeling so much pain
And swearing you’ll never let anyone too close again
Close enough to grab your heart and crush it.
Don’t stay numb too long, darling.
When was the last time you felt genuine happiness for the accomplishment of another individual? We all need to be a little less judgemental and a little more supportive. We need each other.